i made it
wendy got to my house on the 24 of september we spent two weeks there counting the two days we went niagara falls on the canada side thats was great ..we flew out of pittsburgh on the 6 of october to sydney australia ...in all we got a shuttle from my house to the airport in pittsburgh flew on three different planes landed in sydney got on two trains from there wendys older daughter katie pick us up in wendys car all in all we spent over 24 hours in airports or on plane trains or automobiles ..but we are here been here for a little over a week ....i have a long journey in front of me being able to stay and live and work here but with wendy at my side it will be worth it ...
it feels like a long time ago now that i found cindy dead on our couch and i tried the best i could to bring her back .. i knew at that moment when i found her on the couch she was gone but didnt want to let go and for months after that i still didnt want to let her go no matter what happen i still loved her and always will the hardest thing was the emptiness ,the empty house the empty bed not having anyone to talk to .. waiting for my royal visit from cindys youngest daughter and her two kids in which i got at first once a week then it turned into once every other week .spending the holidays alone talking to the dog and cats and turning on the t.v. so i could hear someone elses voice ..until i found wendy and she wanted to talk to me because she was feeling the same as i was thank god for her reading one of my posts and asking to be my friend the emptiness wasnt as bad having her there to talk to helped more then anyone knows even her and i tell her every day and she just tells me i did the same for her ...........
well today cindy and i would of been married 21 years and i have been without her for 18 months . and i feel good about myself for the first time in a long time .......cindy may be gone but she will always be with me in my heart and in my mind and i will never forget her thats the best anyone can do ...i will live my life as best as i can knowing that things can and will change without you being able to stop it ,i will show wendy i love her every day for the rest of my life ..
its hard to beleive that 18 months ago life sucks so bad that it was to hard to look forward to waking up and starting a new day but everything is good now and i get to start over again thats not easy but i am willing to do it ..........good bye for now and i will always love you ..scott
it feels like a long time ago now that i found cindy dead on our couch and i tried the best i could to bring her back .. i knew at that moment when i found her on the couch she was gone but didnt want to let go and for months after that i still didnt want to let her go no matter what happen i still loved her and always will the hardest thing was the emptiness ,the empty house the empty bed not having anyone to talk to .. waiting for my royal visit from cindys youngest daughter and her two kids in which i got at first once a week then it turned into once every other week .spending the holidays alone talking to the dog and cats and turning on the t.v. so i could hear someone elses voice ..until i found wendy and she wanted to talk to me because she was feeling the same as i was thank god for her reading one of my posts and asking to be my friend the emptiness wasnt as bad having her there to talk to helped more then anyone knows even her and i tell her every day and she just tells me i did the same for her ...........
well today cindy and i would of been married 21 years and i have been without her for 18 months . and i feel good about myself for the first time in a long time .......cindy may be gone but she will always be with me in my heart and in my mind and i will never forget her thats the best anyone can do ...i will live my life as best as i can knowing that things can and will change without you being able to stop it ,i will show wendy i love her every day for the rest of my life ..
its hard to beleive that 18 months ago life sucks so bad that it was to hard to look forward to waking up and starting a new day but everything is good now and i get to start over again thats not easy but i am willing to do it ..........good bye for now and i will always love you ..scott
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