Another Day

Today is my birthday and I really feel alone.  The only birthday wishes I received were from business not real people.  All my life I always tried to make the people that were close to me know that there birthday was really special.  Gave them surprise parties, took them out to great meals or just came up with special gifts.  Now it feels like this only person on this earth who is remembering it is my birthday is my daughter and I just could not handle what she did to me again yesterday, she never keeps her word.  I had to decide not to have a relationship with her anymore to just keep my sanity.  Before I decided that she called and went on and on about her life and then she asked me what about your birthday and told me her cell phone was dying and she would call me back a little later and then I did not hear from her again.  I called her later that evening and she told me she was going to sleep and asked her why once again she did not call me back and she made so many excuses that had no real importance.  I asked why did she call me in the first place and she told me she did not want me to be alone on my birthday.  I asked her how would she know if I her plans or not.  She answered I did not know just in case you were alone she thought she would make plans with me to do something.  I told her how can you spend my birthday with me when you hold all this built up resentment for me.  How you believe  I was responsible for all the bad things that have happened in your life and that I have never been there for you!  She told me she can have resentment but still care about me.  I told her why would I want to spend my birthday with someone that resents me, it does not make sense.  My whole thought on this is that people these day are only thinking about themselves period.  I do not buy into any of this crazy thinking that my daughter is trying to lay on me.  I do not feel  bad for how she was raised and she needs to grow up and that 35 year old woman does not act like this.  She just is looking for someone else to blame for all her problems in life and I decided a long time ago it was not going to me anymore.  So Happy Birthday to me and I think I will treat myself to a big slice of  Chocolate Cake today!!