GOLD

I don't know what it is lately but I've been waking up everyday appreciating my present life. I no longer open my eyes and wonder why I'm still around, but instead what I love about that day coming to me. I feel so powerful....I finally have control over my emotions. A power that I've never had before. They used to have their say in regards to everything and now I can put my had in front of my body and stop the pain from inflicting myself and others. My wounds from my past no longer bother me--I can look at them like any other past memory and feel a slight sting but know that I am here now and stronger because of the suffering. I don't worry about not having a place in this world because I'm still establishing myself and working towards becoming a better person.
Right now I'm really focused on my current dream which is to publish my dreams. It's become a really intense wish of mine recently. It's a long term process, which will start off with writing classes. I need to be more confident in my writing, I need people to feel what my dreams are trying to convey.
I feel like I'm glowing all the time, like gold. Not old and tarnished and forgotten but the kind that's been kept close to someone and hidden away to keep safe. And now I'm out to finally take a step for myself and no one else.