update

I am back on here because things are really hard again for me but I am trying to get better. In regards to the last journal entry, I am not pregnant. Also, I am not having anything to do with that guy. I got back in contact with an ex of  mine that I knew since I was in high school. He is a great guy and we are back together. The thing is that he is currently deployed in Iraq and will be until July. Last night I fell completely backwards. I drank and got high and everything. I do not know what to do anymore. It took me all day today to feel better. I dont want to do it anymore. I have bad cravings and need to stop now.