I can honestly say that for the first time this year, I am actually feeling ok. The problem with my supposed best friend is far from over but I am getting through it as best I can. I have not really talked with him for a couple weeks now, just text messages that barely mean anything. I thought about seeing him but everytime I get a text there is a dig at me in it. I can tell he is seething mad at me for something trivial but whatever. I have so much going on in my  life right now, I cannot let this distract me. I have found a book series that I love and has kept me from letting my thoughts go too far. Therapy has been rough the past 2 sessions. I know I said I would update some of you so here it is. I am still working through just one attack as far as the emotional side. I cannot handle very much of it at a time so we are working slowly. I am going to see my psychiatrist soon to figure out my meds again because I am feeling like  I am still not right. The cravings have not been as bad as the past mostly because I have not had any contact at all with anyone from my past that still uses. I am not ready to and will not until I feel I am at a good place in my recovery. I have not heard anything yet about the job interview but hopefully soon. I am so thankful to be able to come on here and vent and be able to really tell people everything that is going on with me. It is very hard to share this with people that do not understand.