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Grrr! Days like this drive me crazy. Not happy, not sad. Just feeling blah. I have to make myself get up and do something or I would just sit on my computer playing Pogo and chain smoking.
Sometimes I feel so bi-polar. I can get all excited about something and throw myself into the project completely. But, then I am so easily distracted that it never gets finished. Ugh
I already made stuffed bell peppers for dinner tonite and cleaned the kitchen. I just can't seem to get up the energy for anything else. I feel so usleless!
Sometimes I feel so bi-polar. I can get all excited about something and throw myself into the project completely. But, then I am so easily distracted that it never gets finished. Ugh
I already made stuffed bell peppers for dinner tonite and cleaned the kitchen. I just can't seem to get up the energy for anything else. I feel so usleless!
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Today was kind of busy. I had a Red Hat meeting. I am so spoiled! My Queen Mother went to Japan and brought back presents. She brought me a flask for Soki and some Japanese stamps and some Japanese playing cards. Another lady brought back some sand from Hawaii. One of these days I may spread it on a kerchief and walk on it. That way I can say I\'ve atleast stepped foot on a Hawaian island. LOL
I have an Eastern Star meeting tonite. Busy days are always better.
I made myself get out and mow my neighbor\'s lawn. It\'s more of a hot thing. Riding lawn mowers make it pretty easy. Im glad that is done. It helps me feel like I am useful. My neighbor is a shut in and cannot afford to pay for someone to do it. My husband works so hard. I just don\'t want him to have to work when he gets home.
I didnt do too much today or yesterday. As soon as I got out of bed yesterday I fell flat on my face. Not only that, I knocked everything off my nightstand and onto my little dog. Poor guy. Everyone around me is acting like I\'m gonna shatter. Shit happens. Let me just try to get through it without calling in an ambulance! I know they are just worried and care about me. But, ugh. I feel like a prisoner in my own home. }( grrr
Grrr Husband and I went shopping yesterday. I love my husband, I know he loves me. But, grrrr. I ask him, \"Well, what do you want?\" And he says,
\"Well I don\'t know Honey. What do you want? You don\'t always feel like cooking, so get stuff that is easy to fix.\"
Guilt!!!
I know, I know. I shouldn\'t feel so guilty, but alas, I do. He works so hard. Just another day.
Topic-IT\'S THE MEDS!!
I know I am probably taking all of this too personally. But ugh, some people on here can be so judgemental. It\'s not like I messed up my meds on purpose. I have never used drugs and it offends me that someone would suggest that.
I wrote that post, hoping that someone else would be able to recognize when their meds are messing with their heads. I know that i dont always realize it.
I am probably taking it too personally. But this is how I feel at this moment.
GRRRRR
I\'m sorry to hear this happened. We all should be on DS to help and support one another, not suggest negative things. Hugs ~Willow
Today is a weird day. But they usually are when I get up at 4AM to take hubby to work so I can have the car. Came back home, took me awhile to go back to sleep. And had weird dreams.
When shopping for my neighbor and myself. I went to my storage room to find some things. Now that place is just a mess.
I think when I fell a couple of weeks ago I irritated a bulging disc in my neck. I couldn\'t find what I wanted partly because it started to rain on me and partly because I knew I would hurt myself trying to move so many boxes.
Guess I\'ll have to wait for hubby to have a day off. I hate asking him to do extra work when he works so hard already. Sigh...
Guess I\'m just feeling a little down since my Eastern Stars went dark. No meetings until September. It always gave me something to look forward to. Red Hats is coming up next week but that seems so far away. I like all of us here have few friends and the ones that I have work. The days are so long and boring...
All I did was sleep today. Guess my body needed it. Kinda wierd tho. Hubby had a good day so that makes me happy. I have to get up and visit my neighbor tomorrow. She is a shut in and her family lives an hour away. I hope someone visits me when I get that old.
Wednesday 14 July 2010
I slept all day again today. This sucks. I know it will get better, but grrrr
Thrusday 15 July 2010
Oh my hands are shaking. My sweet husband replied to a post I pointed out to him. Because the poor guy is going through what he went through and still goes through with me.
He answered in such an honest and loving way it breaks my heart. How did I ever rate such a great guy?
Friday 16 July2010
Lynn and I went and mowed the grass at Pastor\'s today. We went at the wrong time. It was too hot. We both got kinda sick. Even tho, he didn\'t feel good and needed to cool down, he went ahead and planted the flowers that Pastor wanted. It seems like all we did on his two days off is run around and do stuff. He needs some rest. Wish we could win the lottery. Sigh*
Im okay tonite. Just kinda tired. I think I lost a pint of blood mowing the church lawn. The misquitos were out in full force. I didnt realize it, but yesterday I burned my hand on the lawnmower steering wheel. Duh! Black steering wheel in 102 temeture. Sometimes I just dont think lol
I went to church today. It felt soo good. People were really worried about me. Im not used to that. Not really. But it was good to have the fellowship back. I didnt do too much beyond that. I will ge glad when husband gets home.
I\'m glad you could go to church. Church helps me tremendously and I\'m happy to hear you were met with care and concern