Time

While being abused it seems it went by slow, like it would never end in just that one day. I, luckily, was only abused for the total of two school years. But I remember while it was going on, it felt like nearly 5 years. Now Three years later I am trying to get over what he had done. He was sentenced to 12 years in jail because the court figured I was 13 at the time the abuse started. If I had been 12 [which more than likely I was since my birthday isn't till December] he'd be in for life. How could that set that mark? That simply because of me being 13 at the time it started he doesn't get life in jail? That makes no sense that the one year would make the difference of 12 years or life. He deserves life after what I learned about him AFTER. The part of all this that saddens me the most, is that I didn't have to go through. MY grandmother, his MOTHER, knew what he does. He did it to his niece and nephew! Yet, no one in his family though to tell my mother what she was marrying. Not a single word. Not only did I learn that but it turns out his sister was abused by THEIR father. The man, thank god, I never had the chance to meet. He had been long dead before my mom even knew him. When they told me I was stronger than them I didn't believe them, I just had tons and tons of help. But now thinking that I could have suffered my ENTIRE life with the abuse and realizing it took me 2 years to tell gives me a good feeling. You know, I remember him whispering many time, thinking I was never going to say a word, he told me whenever I wanted sex I could always go to him. Why would you go to an abuser to get abused more? He acted like he was doing safe sex. Like hell he was. He rarely used a condom; his excuse, I have no money to buy any, bull****. After I told and he was kicked out by my mother, I remember his lame a** excuse. "A demon possessed me and made me do it," Bull****. Excuses will get you now where! He is such a freak that i swear on my life he is madly in love with me and once sent us a newspaper saying this chick looked like me. NOTHING WAS EVEN SIMILAR! He is seriously crazy. Now the funniest part is, he would always tell me that if his ex gang members knew he was doing that to his child they would kill him. That alone always made me want to laugh. Cause he obviously didn't care if he got killed.