feelings....

Today was kind of a downer day.... my progesterone shots may be getting to me?!?  One second I am so very optimistic and can just "feel" that this is it... then the next second I have horrible thoughts about recieving the negative phone call from the nurse.... ugghhh.Then, I beat myself up for feeling negative and think "I am going to make this not work by thinking this way."  I feel a bit psychotic!  And this has all hit me in the last 12 hours.  I am not feeling much inside of me and I know others have felt cramps etc... I felt fluttery stuff yesterday and maybe some mild cramps (that I may be dreaming up...) other than that and the fact that I am crabby- nothing!   I am heading Up-north tomorrow night with some friends (at least that will keep me from doing an hpt) and maybe keep my mind busy. But, I am just so very nervous about Wednesday- the big TEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THINK POSITIVE, THINK POSITIVE, THINK POSITIVE!!!! Thank you all for your on-going support!  DS gals are the BEST! Kim :o)