Nuts...

I literally feel like I am losing it!  I am only one day past OV and I am questioning everything about this cycle. I really don't know how much longer I can do this.  I want my baby soooooo badly, but it's so hard with all these hormones etc.  It's like I have a devil on one shoulder and an angel on the other. The angel is like "yeah, this is your month" the devil is like "what do you mean, it hasn't happened yet... why would it now."  AHHHHHH!!!! I just feel like my head is spinning.  Sometimes I can't stop the thoughts. On days when I feel good and my hormones are more in balance I can talk myself down and think more positive.  The problem is- I am a PLANNER. I can't plan while going through this. But every month after I OV- I start to try to plan the next cycle instead of just thinking that this one is IT.  I feel like I am crazy!  Is this common??? Hahahah!