Today and yesterday have been difficult days. Yesterday I was very sick and had to send a good amount of time trying to sleep. My worst symptoms are bone pain, dehydration and a sore throat. I am expirencing hyperthyroidism and my heart races a lot and my hair is falling out rapidly. My head is a mess because I can't tell what is truthful thinking and what is the negative, fearful thinking I expirence sometimes. I need to say the crazy thoughts outloud to hear their insanity and be around people most of the time. The problem is is that when I feel like I am crazy, I get insecure and want to isolate so my friends dont see that I am stuggling and judge the way I am acting which makes me feel like I want to use drugs. The truth is is that the people I surround myself with are very understanding and know I am not crazy, the only craziness is in my head because I am still sane enough to not let it affect my actions. Most of the time I am aware that the thoughts are wrong and don't act on them without checking with someone who will help me and use healthy behaviors to make myself feel better like going to meetings, writing, doing my step work, being with friends, music, etc.

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deleted_user
deleted_user

I\'m sorry your not feeling to good today rdserenity....I do know what you mean about those racing thoughts.....and your right...stay around people as much as you can....think on good things....
I wish you the best...and Im hoping your \"side\'s\" let up on you soon....
karmah0209
karmah0209

rd4, I am sorry you are having some bad sides. Believe me, I had it more mentally than physically. The mental part is hard to get a grasp on, but you can do it!
Are you on any type of anti d or anxiety meds? They help so much! I couldnt do it without this group, and side effect meds.
Good luck to you