Life has been like a rollercoaster lately - some sad moments and many happy ones like dinner with DIL and g/daughter, andbetter relationship with ED.  Enjoyed spending time with DIL and g/daughter, takes my mind off the hectic moments at work.  Birthday is coming up soon.  Not expecting a grand celebration but hoping God would surprise me with an answer to my prayer. It's his 4th death anniversary and although on a different level, the anger, disappointment still lingers.