Time really flies fast; this month is his 5th death anniversary.  The anger still lingers but I am stronger so I am able to handle the feeling better compared to before.  Anger can no longer defeat me.  Is he in a better place, I wonder?  I am still struggling, sad at times but happy and comfortable much of the time.  Alone but complete in a lot of aspects.  Thank you God for making me a new person.  Thank you for my wonderful, supportive and loving friends.  I survived and became whole again because of them.