Had another lab request to go to this morning.  Woke up late and almost did not go as planned.  Good I went because I was able to meet and had lunch with Portia.  She just got back from her (disappointing) vacation after 5 years being.  I am rapidly recovering and could go back to work week of 22nd.  I am going to church again - haven't done that the entire July because I wasn't strong enough.  Tomorrow I've another f/up doctor's appt.  I still have my low moments and cry but thats normal.  Having cancer is difficult; i pray a lot to God asking him to help me handle it his way and for him to lead the way for me.  i will just follow.