Have been crying again, tears would just fall.  I'd pray and it would stop but then it would start falling again.  I planned on going out this morning but the rain changed my plans.  It's going to be windy tomorrow but hopefully that doesn't stop me with my plans.  I have not gone out the entire week; sleeping mostly because I've been spending late nights in the computer and watching TV.  Didn't want to bother Kim because I know she's busy with her husband and the boys.  Portia and I would talk over the phone often.  Nora hasn't called.   I really would like to go back to work but that's not until 1/6.