Well

We had a long talk over the weekend, and Al mainly listen....carefully.  He did not knew about my latest nightmares-he had been gigging on thurs and friday-and at the end he understood my concerns.  So he told me:  "Well my dear, we will wait then...I'm no fool and I know how much you have bless my life..I will continue to try to make you happy every day...I just wanted you to know that whenever and if you feel you are ready...I am."   His words.  And to be fair to him...he does strives to make me happy...unexpected flowers, foot massages, making a fool of himself when dancing and not caring as long as I am laughing and dancing with him, listening, giving my solicited advice about my daughter, treating my daughter like one of his own...been thankful everyday....he is not perfect-I can't as much as I may fix the age difference which is 13 years old-but he has love me in ways that I am honestly not used to.
You know how in the movie "The Break-up"  Jennifer Aniston is so upset because she wants him to want to do the dishes?  Al is the man who wants to do the dishes!!
I guess I need more healing myself...He will be taking a trip to France next month since I have no more days and retail on November is just plain nuts,  I won't be going with him.  But I am also thinking been by myself for a little while might help me somehow.
Thank you Kathi, hurting,trisha for all your support....you make stop and listen..thank you!