Today

The heart is heavy, 
the tears can't stop flowing,
"I don't like you"
Is what have been said
"Nobody will ever love you,
You will grow up and nobody will ever care"
"I don't care" is what been said to me.
And like that the hallows of my childhood memories,
the ones that I fight, almost daily,
are open again
I will never be prepared for all this sadness,
this feeling of worthlesness,
so it invades my vains, my heart, it crawls underneath my skin.
I am tired, I am so very tired
I don't like you/Nobody will love you/I don't care/You are damage goods
My past and my present entertwained, he was right, I am damage goods.
Otherwise today I wouldn't be hearing the words, "I don't  even like you, get it trough your head"
 
Today I quit trying
Today,  darkness wins