132nd Day, almost complete

Nearing the end of Day #132 and feeling good, and I mean REALLY good...and I mean if from the bottom of my heart...really good.  The business I own is currently doing really well, I think in response to my renewed energy, goal setting, hours devoted to promoting, working, etc.  This of course has an effect on how fast we can pay off the debt I accrued over the last 7 years or so gambling.  The old me saw money come in and would immediately be planning on when to go gamble it, or "just a bit of it", thinking I was going to someday hit it big, the new me sees money come in and is quick to decide what to pay it towards, and watching the debt decrease month by month, step by step is so gratifying that I now can see that I don't NEED a big win.  My big win is my loving husband, my amazing daughter, my family, my friends, this business I worked so hard for and all the loyal customers we have...regretfully I didn't see how good I had it, and wasted years trying to "win" something more...but no more sitting in regretfullness...its time to live.  Day by day I check in here, count my days, stay guarded, watch out for my triggers, fight the urges, and day by day I thank God for his blessings.  I now find peace in the quiet, I can be just me, listening for comfort in all I CAN do, instead of trying to hide from myself and everyone else, looking for something I was never going to find.  Again, to say it again...I finally FINALLY.... chose life.