It's weird when you go from being somebody with no regrets, to being somebody who wishes she could take it all back.
I wish I would have had more self esteem when he told me he loved me.
I wish I wouldn't have believed when he said he'd leave her.
I wish no body ever told me that dad had an affair.
I wish that when I had said no, he would have listened.
I wish I never knew about the baby.
I wish I didn't take that drink.
I wish I would have taken enough pills to kill myself, or not have taken any at all. It's screwed up going through life knowing that you weren't even good enough to kill yourself.
I wish they would have listened more, that they didn't just blow the cuts off like it was just a phase.
I wish I was tougher.
I wish I was a kid when I had the chance.
I wish that when I had met him, I would have realized what I really had in front of me.
I wish that when he looked at me, it still stole the breath from his chest. That it erased every word in his mind and left him speechless.
I wish I was still that girl that could make his legs shake, and his heart skip a beat.
I wish I never turned out this way.
I wish I could go back, and do it all different;
then maybe it wouldn't be this way. Maybe I wouldn't be this way.
Maybe I could smile, and feel anger, and sadness, and happiness again.
Maybe I could still be the strong one.
Maybe I could be someone else,
Maybe, just for a day.