I'M BACK!!
Hi everyone!! I’m so glad to be back, I have missed everyone so much! I’m sorry for deleting my original account, I regretted that as soon as I hit confirm. But I was not really in the best place with TTC and wasn’t being very supportive, at all. I found myself being more jealous of everyone than I was being happy. And that is not what I wanted to be feeling so I just stepped away for a bit. But I’m back, hooray!
A little recap of the last few years of TTC:
12/2009- Got married and began TTC
12/2011- DH officially diagnosed with azospermia after surgery confirmed 0 sperm.
3/2012- IUI #1 (50mg Clomid) with donor sperm.
4/18/2012- BFP!
5/5/2012- Ectopic pregnancy, Salpingostomy surgery performed to remove pregnancy, left tube saved
7/2012- HSG showed left tube closed, RE was able to open by pushing more fluids through tubes (passed out from the pain)
8/2012- IUI #2 (50mg Clomid), BFN
10/2012- DH deployed to Afghanistan, I moved home for those 9 months, no cycles
6/2013- DH returned, met with RE to start up again
8/2013- IUI #3 (50mg Clomid and acupuncture), BFN
12/2013- Moved from GA (Ft. Stewart) to TX (Ft. Hood)
1/2014- Met with DR to get referral to RE
6/2014- Finally off the RE waiting list, first apt
6/22/2014- DH deployed to Afghanistan, again
7/2014- IUI #4 (Femera & Bravelle Injections), BFN
8/2014- Cyst on the right ovary, cycle canceled
The last BFN was really hard for me. It took us 6 months just to see our RE, we are being seen at the Brooke Army Medical Center in San Antonio through the military and our IUI’s have been 100% covered, so we didn’t want to pass up a chance to do another cycle. I went to every appointment alone, 3 hour drive, and then when it was a BFN I was alone dealing with pain that comes along with that. We wanted to try again right after but the minute the RE started the ultrasound she saw the cyst and canceled the cycle for that month. Between weddings, holidays and moving home for 2 months (so I wasn’t alone for Christmas in Texas) we haven’t been able to try again. We have decided to wait until DH is home from his current deployment to try again, so that I don’t have to be alone and he can experience everything with me. He will hopefully be home next month!
I am currently on birth control pills and I love it! They help keep me regular and my hormones under control. I told my RE when she prescribed them for that I was probably one of the only women out there who is TTC that is thrilled to be put back on the pill! But I really do love them.
We are expecting to try another IUI in April using injectables again. Since this will be #5, we will see what they want to do about the dosages. I’d like to try something more drastic since this is the 5th time, but we will see. I don’t know when/if we will move on IVF as the clinic we go doesn’t do IVF with frozen donor sperm. Something to do with them not having a place to store the sperm? The last IUI I had to have our sperm shipped to a local cryobank and personally hand deliver it to my dr the day of the IUI, very strange but we will do what we have to do I suppose!!
I know I said it at the beginning but I am just so glad to be back. I really have missed everyone so much! I can’t wait to see what this year has in store for me and all of you still waiting for your miracles!
-Lindsey
A little recap of the last few years of TTC:
12/2009- Got married and began TTC
12/2011- DH officially diagnosed with azospermia after surgery confirmed 0 sperm.
3/2012- IUI #1 (50mg Clomid) with donor sperm.
4/18/2012- BFP!
5/5/2012- Ectopic pregnancy, Salpingostomy surgery performed to remove pregnancy, left tube saved
7/2012- HSG showed left tube closed, RE was able to open by pushing more fluids through tubes (passed out from the pain)
8/2012- IUI #2 (50mg Clomid), BFN
10/2012- DH deployed to Afghanistan, I moved home for those 9 months, no cycles
6/2013- DH returned, met with RE to start up again
8/2013- IUI #3 (50mg Clomid and acupuncture), BFN
12/2013- Moved from GA (Ft. Stewart) to TX (Ft. Hood)
1/2014- Met with DR to get referral to RE
6/2014- Finally off the RE waiting list, first apt
6/22/2014- DH deployed to Afghanistan, again
7/2014- IUI #4 (Femera & Bravelle Injections), BFN
8/2014- Cyst on the right ovary, cycle canceled
The last BFN was really hard for me. It took us 6 months just to see our RE, we are being seen at the Brooke Army Medical Center in San Antonio through the military and our IUI’s have been 100% covered, so we didn’t want to pass up a chance to do another cycle. I went to every appointment alone, 3 hour drive, and then when it was a BFN I was alone dealing with pain that comes along with that. We wanted to try again right after but the minute the RE started the ultrasound she saw the cyst and canceled the cycle for that month. Between weddings, holidays and moving home for 2 months (so I wasn’t alone for Christmas in Texas) we haven’t been able to try again. We have decided to wait until DH is home from his current deployment to try again, so that I don’t have to be alone and he can experience everything with me. He will hopefully be home next month!
I am currently on birth control pills and I love it! They help keep me regular and my hormones under control. I told my RE when she prescribed them for that I was probably one of the only women out there who is TTC that is thrilled to be put back on the pill! But I really do love them.
We are expecting to try another IUI in April using injectables again. Since this will be #5, we will see what they want to do about the dosages. I’d like to try something more drastic since this is the 5th time, but we will see. I don’t know when/if we will move on IVF as the clinic we go doesn’t do IVF with frozen donor sperm. Something to do with them not having a place to store the sperm? The last IUI I had to have our sperm shipped to a local cryobank and personally hand deliver it to my dr the day of the IUI, very strange but we will do what we have to do I suppose!!
I know I said it at the beginning but I am just so glad to be back. I really have missed everyone so much! I can’t wait to see what this year has in store for me and all of you still waiting for your miracles!
-Lindsey
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Lindsey, I am so happy to see you back on here since you feel the time is right. I totally understand taking a break from it all for your own health and sanity. 1st- thank you for your husband and your sacrifice. You guys are amazing and have had to put your family plans on hold while he serves his country. 2nd- I am so sorry you did the IUI by yourself in TX, I can only imagine how emotionally taxing that was on you. 3rd- YEAHHHH for your hubby being home in about 1 month!!! I remember when he was leaving on for this deployment.
PLLLLEASE keep me/us updated on your next IUI cycle. If you have any shot questions, you can ask me. We did 5 IUIs before moving to IVF. Does your military insurance cover any part of IVF?
Welcome back friend! :)
Welcome back! I totally understand your reasons for leaving. I have thought about doing the same thing myself for the very same reasons. I have thought of since you left and hoped you were doing well.
Welcome back! I was going to PM you on FB actually, but I didn\'t want to bring it all up if you were taking a break. I honestly never get on here anymore, but I got an email about your friend request so wanted to see what was up! I would love to talk through your cycles and whatnot on FB so I can keep up to date! I will keep everything crossed for you!
Hey! Can I just tell you that you are amazing and taking a break and acknowledging how you felt is totally understandable. I\'m so happy to hear April is sounding good for you. I want this so much for you guys. I think about you often!
Yea, April is right around the corner!! It\'s got to be your turn soon, seriously you have been waiting forever! It\'s so hard to stay positive all the time especially with one road block after another. I hope you get good support on here, I, like Mandy don\'t come on much, but want to be able to support you. Glad to see that DH is home so you guys can support each other in person through this. Cmon April!!!