I have been having terrible flashbacks. When I think I have dealt with an issue, it comes back to haunt me all over again. I do not like it. I had to postpone working with a client because of it, and due to the panic/anxiety attacks. Just when I think I am making progress, I take two steps backward or more. I hate this. When will the pain and suffering end? I have been disassociating a lot from my mind and body a lot lately too when I do have these flashbacks. I do the grounding techniques, and I have been striving to take better care of myself. I just don't like how I feel sometimes. Uggghhhhhhh!!!!!!!
Did you know KS is refining their stalking law to make it easier to put others in jail? Well, I hope my neighbor doesn't pull anything stupid between now and once the PFS is expired. I desire for him to be in JAIL so BAD, that words cannot express it. He hurt me so bad, and the memories hurt terribly.
School is going well. Hey, can I get some input from you on a sermon idea. I was thinking that the first and/or second sermon be called, "Exodus," because of the people fleeing the Gaza strip, particularly the Palestinians. Any idea on why they are doing that? Another sermon my fiance' came up with, which was excellent is, "Positive Thoughts," I refined it from what he had originally based off the reading from school. This one is based on thinking positive, and going through the Life of Christ. How does this sound? Any ideas? I need to know soon because my paper is due by Sunday at 6 a.m. I have to write the first part of it up by then as well as stuff from the reading too.
Oh, I made the Honor Roll for Manhattan Christian College from making a 3.50 GPA last semester. My highest GPA ever since being in school/Bible College besides what I pulled off in grad. school this past fall as well.
I am still awaiting my background check to start at the shelter. I will let you know when I start. I have been waiting as patiently as I can, and sometimes its difficult because I want to begin ministry so bad.
Have a great week/weekend!!!
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Wow. So much to talk about. As my thoughts come to me. First the sermon idea I would suggest is close to your fiance\'s and I think very appropriate. How about the idea of the positive attiude applied to a \"paying it forward\" process. Sometimes a random act of kindness can mean a lot to some people who least expect it. Just a thought.
Now about the flashbacks. Do you journal? I write almost daily in case I have an episode I can try and maybe figure out what triggered it.
I\'ve had PTSD for about seven years and it comes and it goes and it usually comes when you least expect it. Very frustrating at times. I was told I needed to learn to manage it so I can have a normal life. Not sure if total control is possible but keeping a good attitude about this all I do think helps.
And finally...(I am long winded today)...congrats on the grades. :)
Later Jenna
I\'m glad you made the honor roll. I\'m sorry you are feeling so bad.
Congrats on the honor roll, and the news about the revised stalking laws in Kansas is fantastic.
As for the Palestinians, they are crossing the border into Egypt for supplies, such as food, livestock, back-up generators, candles, fresh water, etc., because the Israeli government has cut power to the Gaza strip and people are suffering from lack of fresh necessities, especially the hospitals. So many of the people crossing into Egypt are picking up supplies and returning. Fewer of them are attempting to remain in Egypt.
Mark 11:22-26 would be my suggestion...