While at work, around 1 a.m., I had a flashback in the morning, and I quickly journaled down my thoughts, and talked to someone to feel better.  Here is what I wrote. I am FURIOUS!!!  I had a flashback, and it was triggered by the TV while at work.  Will Smith was raped on his show by a woman twice his age, a lot like what happened to me with Michael.  The key phrase was, "I am going to slip into something more comfortable."  What Will said in the show is that when someone gets into "something more comfortable," he/she usually wants to have sex.  I got to thinking about my rape.  Michael slipped into something more comfortable, and after I fell asleep the first time around, while drugged up, he kept enticing me to slip into something more comfortable.  I had no idea what he meant.  Now I know what the phrase means, and I am ANGRY!!!  He has no remorse for what he did, and I actually was going to give him a Christmas card.  What was I thinking!!!  I feel like a fool for what happened.  He lied, decieved, and did whatever he could just to have SEX with me, yet he got what he wanted as well as committed a crime.  He makes me SICK!!!! I believe I will be starting up new job in the next 2-4 days.  Praise the Lord!!!  I also applied for an Adjunct Professor job at Butler Community College.  I hope that works out as well. Today, I worked 15 hours, and have the rest of the day off as well as tomorrow.  I work Wednesday through Friday, and so far have the weekend off.  Praise the Lord!!!!  I am not worried about finances because God is providing every step of the way.  He is so good!!! Have a wonderful Christmas and a blessed New Year!!!