I want to thank you so much for checking in on me.  I have been extremely busy with school work, work, and church lately, that I haven't had much time to write on the web.  I am okay.  I was doing great yesterday until I ran into my rapist at the apt., the police didn't arrest him for breaking the PFS (which made me furious and still does), and had a panic attack for 45-1 hour.  I had to talk to my mom to get me to calm down.  People keep telling me to move away but I have some reasons why I cannot 1) Could move next door to another rapist; 2) Fiances; 3)  Not good to run away from problems at hand because that is a way of giving the rapist power by moving away.  I hope this makes sense to you.  I don't agree with what others are telling me because of those reasons listed above.  I have also conquered 4 triggers to my flashbacks, and have many more to go.  Each day I am trying to stay positive, but ever since yesterday my anxiety has been elevated.  I sure could use your prayers.  Thank you.This week is going to be busy because of last minute papers for school, dress rehearsel for our Christmas musical at church, and the fact that Christmas is around the corner (I have not completed my shopping yet due to being low on finances).  At the end of the week, I can get some major needed R and R.  Praise God!!!  One month off from school will be a huge blessing, and I pray I can land a second job soon too.