Last night I was working hard on coming up with a list of triggers that set off my flashbacks.  I came up with a list of 13, but there is a lot more due to fears, of course.  I have no idea what sets them off at night, but my fiance' and I concluded that it is Satan because he doesn't want me to move forward in life.  When you have flashbacks/nightmares at night, what do you think sets them off?I still get panicky once my medicine wears off.  If I wasn't on it, I probably would not be able to function, ever since the rape.  I am thankful to be on it, at the same time, I need to have a better paying job to make ends meet.  I have applied to job after job.  Please pray that something comes up soon.When I do get high anxiety I have been using deep breathing, repition of Scripture, positive self-talk, music, guided self-imagery, etc.  Right now it seems like no matter what I do; I can't get over that feeling.  I also know that I will overcome what he did to me in God's timing.  I hate how I feel.  Do you all know of any other support groups I can be apart of as well?  I need a lot of support to get through this, and I love all of you very much.  I listened to sermon today from www.mccks.edu (my school) called "Loving the Unlovable."  I highly reccomend it if you are struggling with how to love others who have hurt you.