Today I still feel the same as yesterday, but also having terrible flashbacks.  When I stayed the night at my fiance's parents house last night.  The bed I slept in reminded me so much of what happened to me when I was at my rapist's.  I did not sleep very well because of it, and have been sleeping most of the day today, which steinks.  I recently woke up from my nap, and realized something.  In my dreams, if I dream of a spider, it represents my rapist putting his hand inside my private parts.  I woke up saying, "No!!"  I hope he heard me scream since he lives right upstairs.  My cat quickly came to my resuce, and I told her that I love her.  I am so glad to have a cat who comes to me when I need her most.  I had a divine appointment today.  My life coach got online and started to talk to me.  She encouraged me in so many ways, and turns to find out that she is a believer too.  I found out that I can call on her anytime I need someone to talk to as well, which is a blessing.  God is so good!Have a blessed weekend.