These past couple days in Kansas sure have been icy and snowy. I am sleeping a lot more when weather is like this, but making myself get out too. I have been doing better taking care of myself lately by taking my vitamins and working out.

On Sunday, I am going to be a part of a memebership class at Central Christian Church. I like this church so much better. I am accepted and my information is kept confidential. Going to that church has taught me what it means to love all over again because they show agape love, just like my boyfriend does with me. I hope to place my membership there in two weeks.

I am still waiting for when my boyfriend will propose. He is so good to me. I love him a lot.

Today is my mom's birthday. She is now 51 years old. I am learning to forgive her all these years, and that is hard. Right now I am focused on taking care of myself, and in due time be able to forgive her. Am I approaching this right?

Yesterday and today, I was thinking of forgiving those who abused me in my past and present, but am not quite there, yet. Of course, I would be doing it for me and not for them. It will be in a matter of time. Could you be in prayer for my healing process?

Many blessings to all of you, and have a wonderful day.

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yes ,i will pray for you :) i am on my way to church now. you are in my thoughts and prayers and thank you so much for your hug it was needed:)i really dont know what to say to ppl who have gone through what i have.becuase if i knew what to say i would say it to myself .so all i can say is im here for you if you want to talk and ill pray for you .take care and god bless :)
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YAY, you are taking care of yourself! Life sounds even for you. That\'s great news! Can\'t wait to hear about how your boyfriend proposes! Happy you found a church you feel comfortable with. I also have a church that I just feel love. I don\'t go every weekend, as I\'m more of a personal/spiritual person. YES, forgiveness is where it\'s at! It\'s a process. You don\'t have to forgive their actions, just their souls, as they are lost. Their actions aren\'t acceptable, but we all have our life crap to deal w/on our life\'s journey and they have theirs, too. I\'m sure their childhoods werent\' good. Pray for their inner-child to heal. Keep up the positive work!