wow 9 months this thursday i cant beleive iti remember at first counting the hours and days now i just look on here to find out how many day ive had a tough couple of weeks where i felt like my insides was screaming just problems with lifebut i knew well to be honest i hope would pass quicklyim still not 100% but its one hell of a better life without drink waking up shaking cans for dregs of beer and hiding beer on top of cupboards and in the wheelie bin drinking my brothers christmas present that i did 4 times i spent £80 on his gift that year and he still never got his bottle it wasnt funny at the time stood outside a shop at 7am to get served for drink i was pretty pissed before i even started my day at work i knew on the first day at work i look ok if someone turned up a boss i'd be ok the 2nd day not to bad by the 4th i knew i looked awfull and would lose my job if the boss turned up everyday i lived in complete fear i suppose im writing this and im justifying why i should and wont go back its done me good to type and read this god bless you all :0) xxmarky