13 weeks 5 days

pulled 3 hairs yesterday, dont know how i did it.  I have been so in control these 13 weeks and before yesterday did not pull even once.  Today I did not pull at all.. Of course, the impulse is always there, it never leaves in all my waking hours no matter what I am doing.  I constantly play with my hair, so it always looks dirty. It also doesnt look that clean because I put so much olive oil on it.  I feel like I am constantly putting things off like seeing friends because I want the hair to grow before I see them or go out.  My hair has looked so terrible for so long.After my bald spots grow back I think I will try to make small goals of not touching my hair.  Only when it is in the way, like in my eyes or face. It will have to be like the most one day at a time because I touch my hair all day long. Monday is 14 weeks(im not counting the 3 hairs because it was so minimal and I havent pulled since)