13 weeks, 1 day

Every morning I wake up and check the regrowth.  I keep thinking that overnight the spots will fill in more.  I check constantly during the day.  Im so frustrated that it is not growing faster. 13 weeks is a long time and my hair is growing so slowly.  I wish there was more of a reward for controlling myself.  Am I going to have to wait another 13 weeks to finally have a somewhat normal looking head of hair.  I am so tired of this disorder, for 30 years it has been on my shoulders.  Im absolutely sick of it, that is why I will not touch my hair again.  30 years of not having the control that I have now.  I am so angry about all the years I have had to cover up bald spots.  The embarrassment of going swimming, of seeing myself in pictures.  I am done with this, i am so disgusted with it. This is something I know I can control.  It is not going to win this time.  I am.