13 more days! =)
I haven't been having the greatest couple of days. I have honestly been running into such bad luck! I wish it wasn't around the holidays. It's so stressful to think about everything that has been going on in the past year, I would very much like 2013 to arrive already! I have accepted that my holidays will be spent alone, like i have stated in my last entry, and I honestly mean it! OKAY, don't get me wrong. I would love NOTHING more than to share a romantic holiday with the love of my life, but unfortunately that is not my current life. I do not have a boyfriend, fiance, or husband. I am okay with that. I have already accepted that I will probably never meet anyone in this area, nor do I want to! Everyone knows each other, which means even if this person doesn't know you, he/she will know about 10+ that you know, which ultimately leads to unnecessary drama and rumors that i want no part of. Ask me again why I love older men!!
Random thought but I am having a cup of decaf coffee, with coffee creamer, and truvia, and for some reason it tastes like cake... hehe
I have been trying so hard to get a job lately, and I haven't gotten a call back yet. It's very frustrating. I have this odd feeling that once I land a job my life will change. I love meeting new people. I love making new memories. I am so tired of dealing with the same people that have been in and out of my life for years.
I am NOT giving up hope. Sometimes I have really bad days, but i know in my heart that if I hold on a little longer things will change. A little less than two weeks 2012 will be over. The year of HELL will be over! I have lived and learned. I am happy to put everything in the past and move on. I am really going to sit down and think about exactly what I want to do in the next year and try my best to achieve it. I only hope that I meet some great and positive people. I need more people like that in my life right now. Friends that will lift me up when I am feeling down. Friends that will not blow cigarette smoke in my face, and only call me when there is alcohol involved. Friends that take my issues seriously and will be supportive. Friends who actually show that they care about me. I know there are amazing people out in the world (Especially being on this site and talking to all of you!) but I just wish I had more people like that in person.
Sometimes I wish everyone was like most of the people I have met on this site. They say that you shouldn't involve yourself with people who have issues if you already have issues yourself because it ends up being an overwhelming friendship/relationship. I beg to differ. I think it's the people who have issues who are more understanding and sympathetic. Anyways.. you guys are amazing.. That is all. =)
My laundry is done and I am starting to get tired. I probably should chuck this coffee out and make something to eat. I am starting to feel lightheaded. That's what happens when you are running around all day and only have time to eat one meal! Smh.
I hope everyone has a great rest of the week!
<3
Random thought but I am having a cup of decaf coffee, with coffee creamer, and truvia, and for some reason it tastes like cake... hehe
I have been trying so hard to get a job lately, and I haven't gotten a call back yet. It's very frustrating. I have this odd feeling that once I land a job my life will change. I love meeting new people. I love making new memories. I am so tired of dealing with the same people that have been in and out of my life for years.
I am NOT giving up hope. Sometimes I have really bad days, but i know in my heart that if I hold on a little longer things will change. A little less than two weeks 2012 will be over. The year of HELL will be over! I have lived and learned. I am happy to put everything in the past and move on. I am really going to sit down and think about exactly what I want to do in the next year and try my best to achieve it. I only hope that I meet some great and positive people. I need more people like that in my life right now. Friends that will lift me up when I am feeling down. Friends that will not blow cigarette smoke in my face, and only call me when there is alcohol involved. Friends that take my issues seriously and will be supportive. Friends who actually show that they care about me. I know there are amazing people out in the world (Especially being on this site and talking to all of you!) but I just wish I had more people like that in person.
Sometimes I wish everyone was like most of the people I have met on this site. They say that you shouldn't involve yourself with people who have issues if you already have issues yourself because it ends up being an overwhelming friendship/relationship. I beg to differ. I think it's the people who have issues who are more understanding and sympathetic. Anyways.. you guys are amazing.. That is all. =)
My laundry is done and I am starting to get tired. I probably should chuck this coffee out and make something to eat. I am starting to feel lightheaded. That's what happens when you are running around all day and only have time to eat one meal! Smh.
I hope everyone has a great rest of the week!
<3
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