Update

I feel so sad and depressed right now and so lonely. I don't know what to do with myself. I just got done playing a game of monopoly with my mom, but I still feel that way. Part of the problem is that I haven't had a boyfriend in about 6 years. I just have my parents and 1 friend left and my cat. I feel as if I must be letting my parents down by not having a job. I almost never have any money. I haven't had a decent job in quite a while. I am working with an employment specialist to try and find me a job. But it's going to take quite a while to find me anything. I live with my parents. I love them dearly, but I can't live off them forever. Plus both my car and computer crapped out on me quite a while back. Now you can see why i'm so depressed. I see a counselor and am in alternative therapy programs, but there is still something missing. I also have schizo-affective disorder which is a type of schizophrenia. Plus I also have an anxiety disorder.