depressed

2day was a horrible day for me......I miscarried in sept of 09...my twins were due this month on the 10th and im really sad that they are not here......all i can do is look at the ultrasound pics and cry.....my best friend was pregnant with me at the same time and she just had a baby boy, im happy 4 her but its so hard for me to go around her and the new baby because i should be welcoming my little bundles of joy.....me and my fiance have been tryin to have a baby and this month i thought i was pregant until my period started 2day.....i was devastated 2 say the least....i broke down and have jus been really depressed all day. my ees a re swollen from crying. i really want 2 be a mother and im just afraid i wont ever get that chance....i know im young and it may happen one day but im just losing my patience.....i would give anything 2 have my twins back right now....everytime i see pregnant women i get really emotional and break down i feel like im being tourtured....