Here we go again

Well I will be having surgery again on July 18th.  I can't believe I have to go through this again.  I hate being the "unique" person that things seem to happen to all of the time.  I am trying so hard to keep my head up and just be brave and faithful that everything will work out in the end.  But I really want to know where the end is at.  I am so tired of this pain and so tired of putting my family through everything that they have had to go through.  Money problems due to the medical bills, my constant inability to do things that everyone else would like to do.
I love my family so much and I hate what my health problems do to all of them and my friends.  This is the 15th, yes 15 surgeries in the last 12 years.  This will be my 4th surgery on my back.  I have also had a neck fusion and several other surgeries for multiple other problems.  I would really like to have a few years without surgeries or pain.  I am sure that no one wants to have pain.  I just feel like every time we even get a little on top of things, another surgery comes around.  Just when we are starting to pay extra on the 2 visa cards that are almost maxed out, here we go again.
So extremely frustrated!