Since march 08 my life was turned upside down.   I decided to leave my husband after 4 years of marriage and 8 yearts toghther. The HArdest thing I have ever done in my life.  I am an Ex Herion addict sober since Auguat 23rd 2001 :) and my life had been nothing but Craziness.. Raped at 16, using drugs since 13, abortion at 17, rehab after rehab, meeting my husband being abused, diagnosed with Lupus and Fibromylasia, among other thing along the WAY, leaving my husband, looging my 4 cats and taking them to the pound to die, loving to LA(Hollywood) where I know NO one( gre up in Tusin, CA) sooo lost soooo sad soooo tied.....anxiety and depression gets the best of me... I used to cut after my rape.  I stoppped, and once I left my husband I started again about a year later.  I have not cut for a few months, yet there are the scares....  I am sooo tied of this life Lupus.....I am done with the pain and hearache.  I have been on disability on and off since march 08 and EVERONE IN my life including Prudentail (insurance) thinks I am OK I AM NOT>