What a great  day! I got a call from family maintenance, and they said he is going to have to pay   child support too, so yee haw.I was so worried.  But best of all, I was searching on the net, and found that there is an A.A. meeting not too far from my home on Saturday nights, so I finally get to go without worrying about the lights on my car being stuck on high beam. lolI am looking forward to it. I am not saying its going to be easy, but I want to go.well, think about it, its kind of embarrassing to have to go to a bunch of strangers and say that you are out of control.My son came home from school today, and saw some papers I had printed out about open A.A. meetings, and he hugged me and asked if I was really serious, and I said yes, you know I have been talking about it for awhile. lol. I guess they learn not to trust us.I need that spiritual awakening that A.A. talks about, I need company that is into sobriety. I need to be ME. I know for me, this is the only way to stay away from drinking.I want to continue with my juicing cleanses, and my health foods, but booze keeps getting in the way, and I am tired of it, tired of caving in, tired of waking up feeling like a loser.My friends arent going to like this at all. oh boy, are they ever going to stay away. he he. I dont care, I hope one day, they get the guts up to go too.Funny, how when we get a boo boo, we run to the doctor for antibiotics, but when we have a really bad prob, we tend to hide out, and try to deal with it on our own eh? at least, I am that way.funny how alcohol makes us think we have to feel guilty. its insidious. anyway, today, I am full of hope, and believe in new beginnings. and to tell the truth, if there were daytime meetings here, I would already have gone.I know people look down on alcoholics, but I dont look down on cancer patients, and its just another disease. its not a moral thing. i hope I can get my kids interested in Al anon too, so they can maybe one day, understand the thinking behind an alcoholic. And to get some support  too.This has been a really good day for me, I got to talk with my daughter on the phone for hours,  and I feel good.Off to school tommorrow. I hope everyone has a great night.