whew, sleep can be exhausting. I must have tossed and turned all night, my hair is in knots! no more nibbling before bed. I know alcohol starves the body, but eating like this for three days is just crazy. Today, I am going about it the right way. lots of fresh fruits and vegetables, protein for supper. keeping on my food schedule should help a lot.Still popping all my vitamins, and man, there is a lot of them! I do look like crap  though. I sweat a lot, my face looks a bit pale. But my spirits are high. I dreamed last night that I was mixing drinks and smoking of course. ha ha oh how the sick mind works! I am strong, and my friends in here make me even stronger. I have hot mint gum for my tobbacco cravings, and the weird thing is, I havent craved a drink. tis ok, not messing with that at all. I almost considered that nicotine gum, but I know the way my mind works, first its the gum, then I will convince myself its ok for a lite beer. then I will be back full time on everything I want to quit. oh yes, I didnt get this far without figuring out how the nasty part of my brain works. ha ha drunk or not. off to school tommorrow, new stresses, new opportunities to over come them. Bring it on world, for today, right now, I am strong. (Ok God, dont give me more than I can handle...at least not yet.)ha ha......ok, I am off to get ready for the day, that lawn still needs to be mowed, and it looks like a storm coming yee haww. finally.