We signed up for a home phone and basic cable. I think it was a mistake, but we did it any ways. I agreed to the cable so Steve could have something to do, other then bug me or sit on the couch board. We don't have too pay anything for 3 or 6 months.  That should be enough time for Steve to get a job. If he doesn't will have to cut back on our food and my meds.    Well I am bleeding again. I'm hoping it's my period. (Just when I was starting to feel better).    I haven't been as depressed as I was. I feel that I'm as good as I'm going to be for a bit. Good for me is not wanting to beat myself up as much. The best thing that saves me from myself is distraction. It does have to be the right distraction, others can make me worse. I am still scattered brained though.