Didn't avoid Steve or Grant very good today. Tried to hide even tried to sleep, but it was a no go. (Well Steve just sneaked up on me, and that's not an easy thing to do). I find that I want to get away from them both. They want to play with each other, and I get nervous that and argument will happen; with me stuck in the middle.    As I was growing up, there was a lot of fist fighting, that started out as some one teasing some one else. Needless to say that when some one starts to tease some one else, I get all uptight and scared.    Grant is teaching me to say "I heard you". I'm hoping that it will help him to stop repeating him self.   I need to talk to Steve soon or some one else about him. I don't know if he realizes that he has been mildly nasty to me. I don't even know if it's just my perception. I hope I can talk to him tomorrow about it.    I know why some of what is/isn't happening, that's causing me to pull away. For me, it's him not working. That contains two problems. 1. We don't have enough money. 2. He's always here, and follows me around or finds me if I am out of his site for 5 minutes. Witch leaves me no space or privacy. He wakes me up when I am sleeping. He is board and wants me to be his entertainment, and is cranky when I'm not entertaining him. So I am getting stressed out by it all.