My pc is fixed again thanks to my son.

 My doctors appointment was ok. It led me to 2 more appointments. One for an ultrasound and the other to discuss the ultrasound. Well it looks like the problem fixed its self.

 Tomorrow I have another appointment. That one is for mental health support of some kind. It was made so far back that I can't remember any more then that.

 My poverty is causing me to feel sad again. I am having such a had time dealing with it. I just can't seen to not want or need. I put myself through a nasty cycle of anger and self blame. I tell my self if I didn't have the Agoraphobia I could run away, or steal. Then I shake my head and laugh ironically at my self…..if I didn't have the Agoraphobia I could work and support myself and wouldn't need to run away or steal. NOW ISN'T THAT A CATCH 22. I was never rich. But up until lately I never really needed or wanted for much. Oh the thoughts that run through my head. Some are just plane nasty. Steve is trying but he hasn't tried hard enough. He has let jobs pass him by because they weren't his normal type, and has quit 2 jobs already because they were to hard on him. He says after tomorrows' appointment that he will start looking again. I understand that he is scared of getting lost in this city, but we have been here for 4 months now and there was a job opening just up the street at a fast food restaurant and he refused to apply for it. GRRRR.

 I hope I get some help from tomorrows' appointment.