i feel like my thoughts are a carrot on a stick.i chase them, but rarely catch them.
my opinion about people is, there not bad, they just do what they feel they need to do to survive.good,bad or indifferent.
i feel that being intelligent makes it harder for professionals to take me serious.i also feel that the professionals down play my need for help.
i believe that hope is a curse as well.it keeps me suffering, in the "hope" that i will be well some day.
it sucks that i can't love or appreciate my self the way my family does.i just feel useless and wasting space.

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Hi There. Just to let you know, I understand what you mean about the professionals. Are you like me, strong on the outside? Because of this, no one sees what is really going on in there. Maybe because I spoke so casually about my depression to the doc instead of being a blithering mess, I don\'t think I was taken very seriously either. I\'m a merangue (spell check please) hard shell on the outside, soft and gooey on the inside. Maybe changing the \'Hope\" to \'Belief\" might help things along.
I know I\'ll get past this, just not sure when. You are not useless, or wasting space. You are the most important person in the world to your family. So am I to my family. Any time you want a chat...I\'m here.