Lost
I dont know what to do. My boyfriend is leaving I have panic attacks and I have no answers about the future.
The last time I suffered prom panic attacks Jesus was the only one who helped me. They went away for 5 years. Now they are back. I am at a point in my life where things are very unstable and I have to make big decisions.
My boyfriend was going to propose to me before he left so that I would know that things would be alright and we would still be togther. I cant have him do that though cause as much as I love him he wont talk about his relationship with God and I want a marriage where God is the center. I dont wanna marry someone who doesnt believe cause we have problems now that will only make it worse.
I dont know what to do. Do I give up my dream of an ideal marriage and life for someone I only get along with half the time or do I wait and maybe find love again.
Ending things is so hard and I dont know if I can do it. Going from possibly marriage to nothing is a horrible decision to have to make. And to have my mind clouded with anxiety and guilt for being with someone God may not approve of. It is just too much.
The last time I suffered prom panic attacks Jesus was the only one who helped me. They went away for 5 years. Now they are back. I am at a point in my life where things are very unstable and I have to make big decisions.
My boyfriend was going to propose to me before he left so that I would know that things would be alright and we would still be togther. I cant have him do that though cause as much as I love him he wont talk about his relationship with God and I want a marriage where God is the center. I dont wanna marry someone who doesnt believe cause we have problems now that will only make it worse.
I dont know what to do. Do I give up my dream of an ideal marriage and life for someone I only get along with half the time or do I wait and maybe find love again.
Ending things is so hard and I dont know if I can do it. Going from possibly marriage to nothing is a horrible decision to have to make. And to have my mind clouded with anxiety and guilt for being with someone God may not approve of. It is just too much.
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