Update
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Well interesting month and a half. The entry of April 22nd seems to be a "turn around" not that I can pick good people but that bad person is out of my life.
I noted I had a 3rd interview, well I did get the job and I am just so happy about it. When I called that collegue that I was taking a full time job and couldn't work as a 1099'r for him any more he couldn't even be happy for me. Oh well.
So he is no longer in my world, I might run into him professionally but that is to be expected.
I happy to have this job. I have the most amazing view ! But what is better is I am respected and treated as a professional!
I am still lonely. Yes I do belong to a congregation, but I am lookng at changing to another one. But I think the people in Seattle might be as cold as the weather!
I am sending my mother an "olive branch". I dont know how it will go but I was up at the outlets and Coach has this purse that I think she'll like and it was 80% off the orginal price. So hopefully she'll like it.
My councilor said she thinks I dont need her anymore and boy did that cause alot of anxiety. At least I have one person that I can talk to, even if I am paying for that privlage. She is a nice women and the thought that she might not be in my life anymore is hard to digest.
I am noticing that more and more people are nice. My husband and I started a part-time catering business. The women I rent the kitchen from was very kind to us and our first catering gig was both a disaster and a success. We had to rent a smoker (electric - yuck) but it kept blowing a fuse. We still managed to bbq or meat and it was good and everyone loved it. We didn't charge for the food but we said if they wanted to donate they could and they did. I was amazed. I realize that I had the universal law that people are mean. Need to modify that.
Personally, I hate facebook. I was told that the catering company needed to be on social media. Well then people I knew back east found us. Well spent some much of my life back east trying to fit in, it is very hard to see these posts from these people. I dont have personal page and I wont, but my husband does. I still get upset and fearful of my early life. I am just not that person anymore but I also dont want to remember that person.
So according to my therapist I am doing well. I would agree. I really am not the person I was a year ago. Which is a great thing! Being nearly sucidal is a very bad place to be and to see where I am now its even hard for me to believe.
All the best to all.
Well interesting month and a half. The entry of April 22nd seems to be a "turn around" not that I can pick good people but that bad person is out of my life.
I noted I had a 3rd interview, well I did get the job and I am just so happy about it. When I called that collegue that I was taking a full time job and couldn't work as a 1099'r for him any more he couldn't even be happy for me. Oh well.
So he is no longer in my world, I might run into him professionally but that is to be expected.
I happy to have this job. I have the most amazing view ! But what is better is I am respected and treated as a professional!
I am still lonely. Yes I do belong to a congregation, but I am lookng at changing to another one. But I think the people in Seattle might be as cold as the weather!
I am sending my mother an "olive branch". I dont know how it will go but I was up at the outlets and Coach has this purse that I think she'll like and it was 80% off the orginal price. So hopefully she'll like it.
My councilor said she thinks I dont need her anymore and boy did that cause alot of anxiety. At least I have one person that I can talk to, even if I am paying for that privlage. She is a nice women and the thought that she might not be in my life anymore is hard to digest.
I am noticing that more and more people are nice. My husband and I started a part-time catering business. The women I rent the kitchen from was very kind to us and our first catering gig was both a disaster and a success. We had to rent a smoker (electric - yuck) but it kept blowing a fuse. We still managed to bbq or meat and it was good and everyone loved it. We didn't charge for the food but we said if they wanted to donate they could and they did. I was amazed. I realize that I had the universal law that people are mean. Need to modify that.
Personally, I hate facebook. I was told that the catering company needed to be on social media. Well then people I knew back east found us. Well spent some much of my life back east trying to fit in, it is very hard to see these posts from these people. I dont have personal page and I wont, but my husband does. I still get upset and fearful of my early life. I am just not that person anymore but I also dont want to remember that person.
So according to my therapist I am doing well. I would agree. I really am not the person I was a year ago. Which is a great thing! Being nearly sucidal is a very bad place to be and to see where I am now its even hard for me to believe.
All the best to all.
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