bad day

well my journal worked earlier this morning so i am going to try it again, i have hurt all day, the weather is getting colder in the mornings and at night, usually this is my favorite time of year, but it is really hard this year, i can't get my sleep out of control, and i am so tired, i can't make myself do any of my hobbies, and my eyes are getting so bad that i really don't like reading anymore so i just sit, i have never been a tv watcher, but it seems that is all i can do anymore, my family is so tired of cardboard pizza, and sandwiches, because cooking is always so hard, i feel like i get up in the morning, start to clean the kitchen from the night before and by the time i get it done it is time to start supper, by then i am so tired i can't clean the kitchen, go to bed, and it starts all over again, i hardly go anywhere, and so that is my life, i am however thankful for my little jess she is special, she helps me all she can and tries to keep me laughing, she hates to see me cry, she doesn't even want to go anywhere because she is afraid to leave me alone, such a sad life for a 9 year old girl. ok pity party over, put on the cheerleading suit, and go spend some time with my family, hope everyone is doing well, thinking of all my dear friends on here always.