dread....

Well its almost the day that I dread so much. I guess I probably shouldnt but its hard not too. I should have a baby. My first would have been 1y2m, my second would be 9 months old and my third would be 3 months. I know its not possible to have them all but I should have atleast 1 if not 2 by now. My husband brought me a game for my nintendo DS and a card. It was very sweet but of course it made me cry. He gave it to me early because he knew I wouldnt be able to handle it on Mothers Day. I just want to let all of you know that Im thinking about you on Mothers Day. I know some of you have children now and Im so thankful for that it gives me hope. I love you all. For the ones that are still trying. Hopefully we'll get ours next year. I know we are all mothers still even with our babies in heaven. I know they are watching over us on mothers day. Love and hugs, Monica