Happy Valentines Day Everyone! Hope everyone had a love filled day. Im feeling kind of down today. This medicine is making me nuts. I've had a headache for 3 days now, I'm emotionial, and cranky all at the same time. Then on top of that I've been  getting  hot flashes. But I guess its all worth it in the end. Tomorrow is my last day of medicine then Tuesday I go back to the doctor to see how many eggs I produced. Hopefully like 2 or 4 I could live with that. HEHE. Hopefully they all stick and I'll have a few kids instead of 1 or none. I told my husband this might be God's way of giving me the twins I've always wanted. We'll see! I just want to be pregnant atleast 13 weeks and then I'll be happy. Maybe I'll stop worrying that I'll never be able to have kids.Last night I was thinking and I'm like do I really want to be pregnant again. Do I want to know I'm pregnant then everytime I get a growing pain or a gas cramp think I'm having another miscarriage. I just dont know if I can handle losing another baby. I think I would end up in a mental hospital if that happened. 3 is enough. I just want a baby already. I dont want to suffer anymore losses or anymore pain. There is no medical explaination why I'm having miscarriages. Its very frustrating.  Well sorry to vent. I've been doing good lately its time I have a crappy day. Its Valentines Day I need to cheer up. My husband got me the most beautiful card. It says "Our marriage has seen its share of day-to-day and wear-and-tear. Yet each time I look at you, I know this age-old saying's true 'quality lasts'.  Theres one thing in my life that I'm completely sure of- I love you. and you can count on that forever. Happy Valentines Day."Isnt that beautiful it sums up our last 2 years of marriage good. Well talk to you guys later. Thanks for reading this. You guys are the greatest. HUGS MONICA