Just an update

It's been so long since I really been on here so I decided to write a new journal entry. It has been a little over two years since I came out but "the more things change, the more they stay the same". I still haven't even been on my first date yet. I'm ready to get my feet wet but scared to death to put them in the water. It's hard for me to find some one I'm interested in. I finally got a job and been working for the past eight months and that doesn't help me in the whole dating department since I work twelve hour days six days a week. The money is okay but it's starting to take it's toll on me.
I'be had a really hard start of the year with my dad being sick and passing away in February and that was one of the hardest thing I ever had to go through. He suffered so much but thank god he's in a better place. My anxiety came back for awhile after dealing with his death. I was lost and confused for a couple of weeks. I'm happy that I came out to my dad and we were able to talk about it. He was okay with my decision and just wanted me to live my life. He was a great father and I will forever miss him.
I looking at going back to school for computer's or cooking. I still haven't decided what yet. I have a couple of months of thinking to do before I leave to make my move. Making friends is still kind of hard to do and talking to people because of my shyness but work is helping me open up more since I have to deal with customer's all day. I need to finally just stop caring what people think about me and live my life. I'm going to be thirty in two months and a half and I feel like I haven't accomplish anything since coming out. Most of my family knows but to me it's not real until I put myself out there and start trying to have some kind of relationship.