Well, here's an update.  Mom's back in school.  We are on the road 4 days a week.  She has two classes left.  We were fighting pretty bad.  In the last week things have changed thank goodness.  She has stopped talking about religion so much, and I have stopped going to church with her.  It seems that I am in a questioning stage and we just argue according to her.  I feel desperate for her to understand where I come from, I guess.  Now without going to church we have less to talk about religiously.  We are watching more movies and tv together like we used to.  She does ask every time if I'm going in, I am afraid to.  I like things as they are now.  I have made many friends in her church and like to see them after the sermons and catch up.  The insurance is still under review.  I am seriously thinking about a volunteer position as a child advocate.  I have not heard back from my old boss to see if I can attend development classes in my field.  The holidays were rough for us but we made it through.  I keep hoping a man will fall into my life.  I just want a liked, fun, fully engaged in society man.  The ones that seem to like me seem rejected by society and not what I am looking for.  Here's to holding on.  I can't imagine I am here on earth to be alone and live at home forever.  Sorry if all this seems selfish.