What a screw up. I decided that the guy I like from church had told me one or two things so I would reciprocate. He had mentioned he wanted to know more spanish so I wrote him two short messages one today and one yesterday in Spanish. He texts me back saying he knows no spanish. Not indicating he would like to know what I said and when I asked him how his day went he said one line. It is hopeless for the two of us to get together. I just hate that the one guy who caught my attention in a hella long time is a lost end. I missed my book club meeting this month. The book I'm reading for next month seems hard, probably cause I was distracted. I hate myself for rejecting my high school prom date. He is the only one who has ever wanted to be with me. What a joke- the dreams I had as a kid. If God exists I really hate him-tonite anyway. Why can't I have the simple things of love and a family. A good job is secondary to event that.