Well, I am really trying to lose weight. I have replaced one meal per day with a shake. Today I had 5 crackers and a mini ice cream-peanut brittle- with it. The craving has been days long. I am learning to eat less as the days go by. I filled out another job application-this one in my own town. Its again clerical in nature. I had to run into town this morning. I went by myself and it felt so great. Mom cajoled me into going to church Thursday night. Her instructor was giving the sermon. I felt like I was an intruder and didn't really belong. My religion is science, not scientology mind you. She made me feel really bad saying that I emberrassed her. I thought everyone was nice and I was plesant back, so not sure why. She was fine yesterday and today. Well that is all for now. I am trying to keep my spirits hopeful.