Well, I am really trying to lose weight.  I have replaced one meal per day with a shake.  Today I had 5 crackers and a mini ice cream-peanut brittle- with it.  The craving has been days long.  I am learning to eat less as the days go by.  I filled out another job application-this one in my own town.  Its again clerical in nature.  I had to run into town this morning.  I went by myself and it felt so great.  Mom cajoled me into going to church Thursday night.  Her instructor was giving the sermon.  I felt like I was an intruder and didn't really belong.  My religion is science, not scientology mind you.  She made me feel really bad saying that I emberrassed her.  I thought everyone was nice and I was plesant back, so not sure why.  She was fine yesterday and today.  Well that is all for now.  I am trying to keep my spirits hopeful.