Sick

Very worn out emotionally was told by daughter to get my own life I'm pathetic and need find friends. I'm so angry I know she was having rough nite but she hasn't stayed here in weeks and I'm sad I begged. And pushing gf away cause I want to care and nurture and make up for what I wasn't allowed to do for my own kids with hers and killin me cause not allowed near hers. It's bringing back pain and I know she taking slow which is good for child but some weeks I can't cope my ex got a knife pulled in h with my child in the car because he had such a bad temper what if it was a gun and my daughter got hurt. I didnt call him and freak cause e will freak on her feel helpless lost crazy