weak

some days i still find myself so weak and tired and dont always want to do it anymore. my children are my reason for staying in one piece. im so damn sensitive and prideful. the holidays are very very difficult. my moms brother passed away recently and she is too tired too have thanksgiving so she cancelled. what the hell. so she is going to my sisters house. i was not invited until i complained on facebook. too late sorry i will stay at home with only my children . was so hurt and angry today. every family has problems but they should be put aside on the holidays and appreciate what you have. i m so lonely and tired of being alone on the holidays. was sad cause friend seeing not coming over. she has 4 hr trip home from family and doesnt want add more time ontu trip. unlike me who would drive across the country for a friend if asked to this upsets me. she said u will have a full house with the kids there and want go home and ride bike. ya feel not so great about this. but she is so kind in many many ways. ugh hate life today. atleast have day with babies tomorrow